More on the WW2 vet who died of hypothermia in his home when power was shut off

well more on the WW2 vetran who died of hypothermia in his home because his power was shut off....bout time, around here we can't shut power or gas off in the winter because this very thing may happen! then most provences utility companies have programs whereby if winter is on its way and customers havent gotten gas/elctrcity back on the company "checks on them" to make sure there is no undo hardship....still other utility comapnies impliment a program hwere repaet shut of for non payment offenders and repeatedlt poor payment history customers are contacted be4 it becomes a problem for them.....
i am still pretty po'ed aboutthis...and u can read my ost it is 4 of 5 posts ago.... heres a bit of the story....

"After Schur's death, Bay City immediately removed all limiters and promised it would not turn off power to anyone this winter because of unpaid bills.

The city commission is also starting a program on March 4 to prevent deaths that enlists mail carriers to watch for anything unusual at homes on their routes.

To participate, residents have to enroll and place a sticker inside their mailbox. Mail carriers who notice mail accumulating or anything else that seems abnormal are instructed to notify authorities to check on the resident."

read full story here

Myself

Myself
I hear the wolf in me
howling.
it is lonely.
seeking out but never finding.
i hear the bear in me
long deep growling voice
angry, feirce.
and i hear the lion in me
challenging
confronting
calling me.
once loud
now barely audible
all these deep inside
i hear the every night.
every day
they are a part of me.


the wolf
seeks out
longing for its pack
it is a stray
alone
no wolf shoul be alone.
where is its pack
its family.
it is so very alone
so very lost
it just wants to go home


the bear
should be peacful
but it is not
it is angry
frightened
it fights to be free
it is hurt
all it feels is pain
and anger at being hurt

the lion
is magnificent
a leader
strong and bold
unconquerable.

stuff on my mind

my song
she feels so alone
and the world never seemed so cold
the only ones who made her belong
have all come and gone
she yearns to be loved
but with a heart so broken,
whom can she trust?

home is where the heart is
all i want
is to belong
to find home
always seeking
never finding
i am, a stray


feelings
i cant write poetry,
but i can write feelings.
love,
despair,
lonliness,
anger,
I write what is on my heart
and mind
but its not poetry
it is me
bared for all to read
but not to see.
there is cowardace and comfort
in anonymity

You and Him
i wonder where u are
what you are doing
do u miss me
did u ever really love me
why was i not worth fighting for
i know where he is,
he is in his other life
without me
but i know what he is doing
i know he misses me
i know he loves me.
and he did fight to keep me
not to compare,
for the sake of caparison
cus there is none
he loves me now.
and i love him.
you loved me once,
and i loved you, then.

another theme song

so iwill admit, i was confused after christmas eve. i almost said to Frank, do u still love me. i willa dmit.... ok i'll admit.
but i'd nvr go back
i am so very lonly at times... and it took my pastor and my friend in another city to remind me that i was lonely in my amrriage too.... so what the point if i did go back
and my pastor... actually said.. he WOULD NOT RECOMEND IT! THAT FRANK BROKE THE COVENENT OF MARRIAGE, AND IT WAS UP TO FRANK TO COME TO ME TO FICTHE RELATIONSHIP, THAT I HAD TRIED MY BEST , AND THAT IF I WAS EVEN CONSIDERING GOING BACK IT WAS BECAUSE I HAVEA GRACEFILLED LOVING HEART THAT SEES THE GOOD IN PPL RATEHR THEN THE BAD,A BUT THAT GOING BACK WLD BE A BAD IDEA.

I LOVE IT WHEN MY PASTOR HAS MY BACK!!!!
its so empowering to knwothat yer pastor, the one who saw u in pre marital and marital and divorce councillign says... u were right to leave and dont go bck!
wow!
it took that night to let it sink in. i needed that lil bot of a boost to say i did the right thing, cus i was just so lonely after this bout of sickness...a nd so fed up w/ my current relationship
all betetr now.

so this song, is for frank :)

Harmony
I Don't Need You Anymore
I don't need you anymore
You left me feeling sore
But now that's no more
How I loved you with all my heart
Until we had to part
Oh how you broke my heart
Now I don't need you anymore
You left me feeling sore
But now that's no more
I used to wish that you would stay
Even just for another day
Now I'm glad you didn't stay
Cause I don't need you anymore
You left me feeling sore
But now that's no more
I have gotten over you
Now I can say that's true
I no longer love you
And I don't need you anymore
You left me feeling sore
But now that's no more
Yeah I don't need you anymore
You left me feeling sore
But now that's no more
No now that's no more

todays theme song

I consider "mucnkins" int his song to be symbolic of all us at work who worked under dragon lady :) and yes i chnged the words a lil bit to gone instead of dead ( cus i dont wish she were dead, and if she did die i would actually cry for her and not celebrate!)

Munchkins
Ding Dong! The Witch is gone. Which old Witch? The Wicked Witch!
Ding Dong! The Wicked Witch is gone.
Wake up - sleepy head, rub your eyes, get out of bed.
Wake up, the Wicked Witch is gone. She's gone where the goblins go,
Below - below - below. Yo-ho, let's open up and sing and ring the bells out.
Ding Dong' the merry-oh, sing it high, sing it low.
Let them know
The Wicked Witch is gone!
Mayor
As Mayor of the Munchkin City, In the County of the Land of Oz, I welcome you most regally.
Barrister
But we've got to verify it legally, to see
Mayor
To see?
Barrister
If she
Mayor
If she?
Barrister
Is morally, ethic'lly
Father No.1
Spiritually, physically
Father No. 2
Positively, absolutely
Munchkins
Undeniably and reliably gone
Coroner
As Coroner I must aver, I thoroughly examined her job.
And she's not only merely gone, she's really most sincerely gone.
Mayor
Then this is a day of Independence For all the Munchkins and their descendants
Barrister
If any.
Mayor
Yes, let the joyous news be spread The wicked Old Witch at last is gone!

still sick.. sorta

so, urs truly... is still not over that nasty flu. lasted 2 wks.. and altho i am no longer exploding at both ends , lol sorryfor bluntess, i am still very very tired and pale. now my co-workers are worried.
allan hasnt said anything, but that cld be cus he doesnt wanna worry me or cus my co-workers are being paranoid. i doubt its the latter...
oh yeah i get told i "loo drainied" "look pale" asked "how are u feelin?" get told i'm "too quite, wassup?" etc etc
i lvoe my co-workers. and i love my enw team manger even betetr
yes despite this bout of flu... i have wonderful news..
dragon lady is gone!!!!!!!!!!!
yipeee!! dragon lady being my supervisor/team mager from hell! lol
i feel bad tho, i was just getting along w/ her, and she just lost her mother... so i feel incrtedibly guilty that when she got fired, yeah she fgot fired i had " ding dong the wicth is gone" stuck in my head ( inknow its whitch is dead, but i dont wisah he dead... just gone.)

anyways, things t work are better now.
life wise, well things with my dad are going great. we are going out about twice a month, and he regularly gives me money. i know money cant buy love, and i pride myself on haveing been independant from my parents since my mother kicked me out at 17yrs old... but srtill if dad wants to offer me money now cus i am hard up fer cash... so be it. i wont refuse. andyways we are heading out to the market tommroow, gonna hot the farmers market actually. nice bonding time. :)

valentines day is around the corner... i got allen a nice lil gift.... he's gettina chocolate bouquet that i will make and mould myself :) i can say that, cus he nvr reads this... but if he does read this... umm sorry sweety and ummm surprise? lol
i dont make a big deal outta val day... its a day to as allen said " focuson the person" not the gifts. i send love notes, think about how lucky i am, tell the person i love them, and get them a lil sumthing from the heart. in n this case, a chocolate boquet i made myself becaus i know he loves chocoolate and loves it when i make sumthign instead of spend money :)

we just came from a restaurant, went our w/a friend and allan. so much fun! allan and i shared a dessert, real couple like :) it was fun talkign and laughing and trying to eat togeter. lol i lovd it.
wish we cld do it more often.

i mean, i know the relationship leaves a lot to be desired, and i am incredcibley loneley, and i feel so very much like gal#2 on the side good fer just the sex at times..... but i lvoe him.
i keep praying love will be enuff to carry thei relationship on. and really it shld, shldnt it?
i wonder if what we have can even be called a relationship... i mean... a cpl hours on thursdays and sundays.... thats it.
but i love him
and i want this to work.
and o does he.

but back to tonight... tonightwa sso much fun. and i am so in love. and i cant await to see him sunday!!! nxt wknd tho he'll prob be away, but thats ok cus i'll see him again soon :)

i jst wish i'd get over this flu. why am i so tired... well not sleeping well doesnt help, but even when i do sleep well i ams till do tired. i feel , well not as bad as b4 my heart surgury but definatly i feel not all there.... like i cld just sleep and sleep and still sleep and feel tired... u know? hope its justa flu.

anyways tata fer now :) ...