What A dream

Ok so not everyone knows this but i tend to have nightmares, a lot. I mean, most people will just tell em thata dream is justa dream and scoff at my being bothered. but the truth is, when u wake up in sweats and a scream has stared to escape your mouth, your heart racing.... Its kinda hard to forget....
This latest nightmare (recurring al night i might add) happend last night.
I was in my old apartment. And i was there with frank. he was wearing that dark gray sweater i always liked on him and a pair of dark blue jeans. his hair was short and he had his goatee all nice and kept. all in all he looked nice. we were living together like the old days and most of the dream was just wacked dream stuff. Next door Monica and her 2 kids were there, I was ciciting them... it wa seriously like the old days minus the fights and such. then the dream takes a weird twist. I'm in the livingroom. I am suddenly beside frank, and i look down and i see his legs and his pant. and his penis is so erect its bulging in his pants. only, i know that lap, and those jeans an theya re not franks, they're allans. but its franks body. next thing i know he's wanting to Fuck me. I say yes and i am niot sure who does what but suddenly he's behind me and i am naked and he's started and i look out the window and its a beautiful green summer park. all sorts of greenery and sunlight and theres a bench right smack dab in the middle. on the bench sits allan all alone. he wears his cap, and matching work jacket, and he's crying, and this si where the nightmare starts. as frank fucks me from behind i'm trying to pull away and i'm fighting frank and twisting and pulling and screaming out to stop and i'm trying with all i can to go to allan. and i'm yelling out no stop! and pulling but frank is just laughing and fucking me, raping me from behind. and i'm hurting and i'm being held back and forced to stay with frank by franks hands and i want to leave i want to go toa lln. and allan is on the bench, just crying and then he gets up and leaves... and i'm reaching out for him and frank is holding onto my arms and puloing me back all awhile fucking me raping me from behind....
and i wake up in a cold sweat my hearts pounding the scream starting to come out of my mouth....
there were many dreams/nightmares that night, i woke up many times in fear. this was the only nightmare i rermebered. and the feeling of terror of frank holding me and raping me and the pain i felt even in my dream from the look of sheer pain on allans face.... still bothers me...
wtf?
i dunno......i dream up som weird shit sumtimes!