This pisses me off.. WW2 vet dies of hypothermia in his home!

read this right HERE then u'll see why i am so pissed off
THIS IS WHY, UP HERE WE HAVE WHATS CALLED WINTER RULES. basically, once cold weather hits for so many consecutive days right up until spring temperature are reached most provinces in Canada have a rult thata utility cannot shut off power or gas for esidential heating customers.... basically its to avoid this from happening!!!!! this poor gusy is an examply of stupid corperate gluttony and mismanagement from city of business and on top of that an example of a city orr state whose laws or bylaws are far too lax on companies!!!!
oh and incase u'd like to argue climate differences, trust me with eh exception of the northwest territories, the yukon, and that new provence i cant spell there aint much differnce in climate between upper USA states and Canada.. think maine and u have the east provences of canada. think new york,michigan, minesota and u got the middle of canada , then think washington and u got west coas canada!!
k, so dont tell me that...
nnad am i pissed ot read this.....
this poor man dies of hypothermia in his own home!!!!

FOR GOD'S SAKE... ITS HORRID

oh and by the way, i know other utilities that conduct investigations into residential heating customers whose heat has been shut off tio make sure they are not goign thru "undo hardship". in toehr words if u get ur heat shut off int he summer, int he fall the utility comapny calls u, asks usum questions, and makes sure u have an alternate heat source. if u dont, then they ask u more questions to see if u qualify for leniency (IE: u have any of the following in eyr hom: ELDERLY PPL , BABIES, YOUNG CHILDREN, SICK PERSONS!!! ETC ETC)

SERIOUSLY, WE ARE TOO FAR ALONG IN OUR SOCIETY FOR PPL TO DIE OF HYPOTHERMIA IN THEIR OWN HOMES IN THE DEAD OF WINTER CUS A COMPANY IS TOO DAMN HEARTLESS TO HAVE PROCEDURED IN PLACE TO KEEP THIS FROM HAPPENING.
ALL THAT COMPANY WANTED WAS ITS MONEY!!!
see theres a simple solution, yeah u put the damn inhibither ont there to limit power, anf then come spring... then us disconnect!!!! then at least ppl dont die of cold!! and they have plenty of time to find social aid or alt accomadations if they can;t reconnect.

AND DONT U DARE SAY I AM OVEREACTING AND I DONT KNOW THE INDUSRTY CUS FUCK YOU....


I WORK FOR THE UTILITY COMPANY!!!! I DO COLELCTIONS, BILLING, SERVICE, RECONECCTIONS AND DISCONECTIOSN ALL THE FUCKING TIME!!!!
I KNOW THERES BETTER WAYS TO RUN THE COMAPNY AND STILL KEEPA FUCKING PROFIT WIOTHPOUT KILLING PPL!!
ESPECIALLY A WORLD WAR 2 VERT!!!!!!
I'd like to say a word of tthanks to the city of Bay city and the comapny i do so dearly love right now "Bay City Electric Light and Power,

thank you, Bay city and Bay City Electric Light and Power, for depriving this world of yet another world war 2 vet. we coudl have learned stil so much more, and he could have touched the lives of so many more children with his stories of war and the need for peace... but no, alas he is dead... but at last he isnt going to incrue any more debt to your company...
thank you, i appreciate that you have one less debtor to worry about whilst the rest of the world, has one less Vetran from whom we could learn.

BTW FUCKERS, get a heart already and guess what u'll still get yermoney cus we all want electricity and or gas and running water...

there, i feel a lil better now.......
NOT MUCH
but a lil

happiness is a lie
fantisised but never realised
its all fake
a smiling face
hides sad eyes

lately i've been battleing a horrendous flu. its lasted a week now.'m on antibiostics and have missed 3 days of work because of it..... and i have never felt so very alone and lonely and sad....
i prided myself on how well i was doing living on my own. until i got this flu.
and all i can think is... i'm alone. i so very alone.
i'm throwing up....int he bathroom... and i'm alone. i'm aching all over and just want sumbody to hold me close, and i'm alone.
i can harly get outta bed at times and i am starving and cant make myself sumthing to eat..... i wish sum1 was there to make food for me... and 'm alone.
my ctas are hungry and i am so sick at times i have to make them weait fer hours for food cus i cant get outta bed yet... adn i'm alone...
god i'm pathetic.
its just a damn flu! but sice i've caught it... i've never been so alone.
and a friends words on my facebook page keep haunting me.. ringing true....
"Its terrible being alone and sick."
it is.
man, i thought i had all these feelings sorted out. takes a flu to bring em out again i guess....
but itsa tru. here i am w/ fevers, and sickness, and all i have are my cats and a phone. and everybody i phone either doesnt have time to talk, arent home, are busy, or just " arent phone ppl. btw... those include my boyfriend. lol. at least when i called one night begging them to drop off gingerale and sihwasher detergent he did, and didnt charge me a thing. i just wish he cldve stayed longer....
and he did drop by thursday, bought a cpl movies and we curled up ont he couch together..... me sleeping in his arms cus i was too sick and tired to stay awake anylonger... him snoring away cus he was comfortable.... his snores helping me sleep...
i just wish he couldve stayed longer, or more often... but he has a whole other life.....
so i'll have to be happy w/ juta few hours ona thursday and sunday... and maybe a fer minutes when he drops off stuff to me...
sumthing tell me, love is not meant to make u lonely.....not like this anyways.
but i am, very lonely. and its pathetic.

warning, female stuff...I both love, and hate my period....

Ok, so a few posts ago i mentioned the pregnancy scare..... well seeing as how i had one positive and one negative and a missed period, and then a very late very short period I decided to still go see my family doctor and get a pelvic exam and pregnancy test done.she did one pee test, negative, and a blood test just to be sure (waiting for that)
now here why i hate and ove my period... last mnth my period showed up the same night as pregnancy test # 2... about an hour later..... damn period has a sense of humouir cus guess what..... a few hrs after my doctors appointment today the damn thing showed up again!
i am both happy it is here, but po'ed it showed up soon after said tests were done!
$%^&*(#$%^&
anyways..... good news bad news
pelvic exam done, no baby. waiting on blood tests just to be sure because of the first positive...but thats a lot of negatives so doc thinks i am baby free...thats wonderful news. especialy when yer struly is in a sekrit relationship and is planning on starting school this fall... yers truly want o be a teacher... or a soccial worker.... havent decided yet.... yeash, i've only had 10 yrs of battling this career business back and forth.... anyways
heres that bad news now...
had a talk with me...
altho i was cleared from all restrictions as of may 26 fer my heart....
which means that a pregnancy is allowed now, cus well from 2000 to last yr it was a no go fer babies........but...
if i were to get pregnant
*drum roll*
would be very hi risk pregancy.
whats dis mean i asked the perdy doctor lady who has known me since the wee bitty me days ...
means if ever yers truly decided to get pregnant there would be "intensive monitoring" as doc put it and "bed rest" and "restrictions"
growl!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I THOUGHT I WAS NORMAL AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
no really... u dont undertsand..... unless u have had a condition that permeates yer every fiber and every day life..... one online friend fer example knows how i feel as they have severe color blindnesss, my grandmother understands as she is blind, my dad understands as he has a heart cionditon...
think of it this way..... i was told no restrictions... live normally. see for yrs until i had my open heart surgury and even then up till this last yr in may i had restrictions.... no this and no that.... amnong them i cldnt be as active anymore , walking only. after a while even that became hard to do. i could not move away as that wld mean gettign a new cardiologist and fat chance anytime soon and meant being put on the bottom of the barrel list fer surgury which i didnt want to happen . so not moving meant i cldnt move to a better job fer my then hubby& i cldnt go to school because he cldnt get the better job to support me as working and school were too much physically fer me to handle... so my dreams got put off...and then on top of that every married woman who eventually wants family's worst nightmarer happens i get told no pregancy at all as will endanger my life....
so when i was told in docs exact words " live normally, no restrictions" i really felt normal.... den the restrictons keep a popping up...like this week i geta flu that lasts a week, i get put on antibiotics cus " with yer heart u cant take chances"
but ok that was ok... small restrictions... that medical... no prob i still felt normal as all cld be...
now now i finally felt normal, like i cld do whatever.... and te doc nvr mentioned in may about pregancy problems....
so needless to say... i am a tad disturbed... not that yers truly is wanting babies yet... i just.... wld like to be normal...
u know

anyways... i gtg...
like i said this blog is a place i cane put all my fears and life wackiness, and bullshit, and even heartaches so that i can try to sort thru them
so yeah....
lets see how i sort this one....
lol