he broke my heart.... and hes doing just fine apparently. my only hope was that after a few days he wld reslise that he missed me...and come back. but...he is not....

and

yeah..

i found a bunch of his shit at my place and he wont even get it. told a freind to throw it out...

no im not gonna throw out his stuff he forgot...

i have come th the realisation he really is a coward and a little boy stuck in amans body

even i f he were to come back i dont know if i woudl take him back..

im doing my damndest not to go too dark on this. i have no bad harmful thoughts...but one thing keeps comeing up..

how little i was worth to him. that in the end i was only worth a 2 min breakup.

and im disgusted at how much i have fallen aprt over this boy-man coward

apparently i was clingy and marriage crazed....

whatever

imiss him with all my heart... but he isnt worth my time...i need to get over him.

a lot of people are psushing me to allan, cus he is promising me evrything welsey couldnt give me...

but i still love wesley and still hope he wld come back, despite how much i say i hate him...

so until i can stop hopeing.... i cant even beging to think to be with anybody else

altho...damn it is fun to flirt again :)

well... ive got to go. urs truly has been a blubbering mess and i need to just let go... and cry a little.

im also sleeping over at emily and alns tonight whilst allan is at work..and im in his bed as we speak cus he isnt home and it is a free bed... perhaps i will play myself to sleep. lol.

fun?

goodnight...

and as fer wesley...

what a coward u turned out to be...