he said "i had a long heart to heart with my martial arts teacher/freind last night. he says im not mature enuff to be in a commited realtionship. i am not. so we r done" i said in anger n shock "leave" then said "wait i have questions" to which he saud "no, no we r thru" and ealked out the door...
2 minutes
i was not even worth enuff to have more then 2 mins. i wouldnt have begged him to stay. i just wanted to have more answers. and i know it prob took everything he had to say that much in 2 mins..but it was still cowardly heartless thoughtless and cruel to give me only a 2 min goodbye...
and when i had finally decided marriage wasnt that important...that if i cld just be with him i wld be happy....
now what do i do about allan... i cant rebound. i need time to get over wesley. i dunno how logn that will take and he, well he admitted he loved me n want to marry me... and im too heartbroken now to even let sumbody that close again..
i finally felt at home with my wesley. we had our problems but i wanted to let them go...n he took the choice from me...
two mins...i wasnt even worth more then 2 mins. y am i so worthless????
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