wonderign how she is doing. we saw pics of her mom as a lil girl and oh my word spitting image of her youngest girl! emily says she takes comfort in the fact there is so much of her mom in her girls.... she aologised to me last night fer not getting any alone time with me. NO u dont need to apoligise to me, seriously sweety i shld be apologiseing to u for not being there more. she is such a sweety thinkign of everybody else, except herself. i think thats a huge part of who she is but it is a little bit of a tactic to avoid breakign down. that will come. when she has nuttin left to do... when all the matters with her mother are settled... she will have a good long cry... it always happens...
she was so strong last night.... but she started to lose her strong self when she spoke of how her middle child is handling the news.....shes starting to process the fact her grandmother is gone , and her grandmother was her number one fave person in the whole world.
she is such a strong woman. she has her faith to get her thru this.... and suprisingly enuff... allan. weird but comforting. allan hasnt brought his new woman to the funeral stuff. thank gawd. really huge faux pas.
not taking wesley..... asked him to stay last night. ok more like begged. said he wanted to sleep in.... asked him last night why he wasnt going to the viewing .... he just smiled and said "oh gotta go. bye" there has to be some reason y.... is it the funeral itself? can he not handle death? did sumbody die n scar him? what is it... cus at this point there had beeter be areason cus he keeps fucking off everyt time i ask him to be there thru this...
could it be allan? is he worried he will punch out allan er sumthin?
anyways enuff that.... gotta go get ready.... funeral today.
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