Shes dead

and thats it.... 333pm, sunday, emily's birthday.... her mother died.

fuck....

we all went to dinner, her n me and our freind Betty and emilys kids and allan.... we all went to dinner after to try n salvage her birthday. whal else was there? her mom was dead....

funeral arrangemtns are done.

i almost broke up with wesley sunday... i tried calling him and texting hom from 1pm till 330pm to tell him what was going on and... no answer. i finally got hold of him at 330pm as i was leaveing for the hospital, tld him emailys mom had died n i was on my ay to hospital "oh shoot" he texts.... the as walkign in the hospital i call him ....and i ask "babes where r u. ibe been trying to reach u." "home" he says "how long?" "half hour to 40 mins" he says "fuck you!" i bleep at him....

still mad....

poor emily.... her birthday... HER BIRTHDAY!!!!! SHE DOESNT NEED THAT! NOT FAIR! WHAT THE FUCK DID DHE DO TO DESERVE THAT NOW HER BIRTHDAY WILL FORVEVER BE THOUGHT OF AS THE DAY SHE LOST HER MOM WHAT THE FUCK! WHAT THE FUCK!WHAT THE FUCK!WHAT THE FUCK!WHAT THE FUCK!WHAT THE FUCK!WHAT THE FUCK!WHAT THE FUCK!WHAT THE FUCK!WHAT THE FUCK!WHAT THE FUCK!WHAT THE FUCK!WHAT THE FUCK!WHAT THE FUCK!WHAT THE FUCK!WHAT THE FUCK!WHAT THE FUCK!WHAT THE FUCK!WHAT THE FUCK!WHAT THE FUCK!WHAT THE FUCK!WHAT THE FUCK!WHAT THE FUCK!WHAT THE FUCK!WHAT THE FUCK!WHAT THE FUCK!WHAT THE FUCK!WHAT THE FUCK!WHAT THE FUCK!WHAT THE FUCK!WHAT THE FUCK!WHAT THE FUCK!WHAT THE FUCK!WHAT THE FUCK!WHAT THE FUCK!WHAT THE FUCK!WHAT THE FUCK!WHAT THE FUCK!WHAT THE FUCK!WHAT THE FUCK!WHAT THE FUCK!WHAT THE FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

OK,THINK i got that outta my system...nope...

WHAT THE FUCK!WHAT THE FUCK!WHAT THE FUCK!WHAT THE FUCK!WHAT THE FUCK!WHAT THE FUCK!WHAT THE FUCK!WHAT THE FUCK!WHAT THE FUCK!WHAT THE FUCK!WHAT THE FUCK!WHAT THE FUCK!WHAT THE FUCK!WHAT THE FUCK!WHAT THE FUCK!WHAT THE FUCK!WHAT THE FUCK!WHAT THE FUCK!WHAT THE FUCK!WHAT THE FUCK!WHAT THE FUCK!WHAT THE FUCK!WHAT THE FUCK!WHAT THE FUCK!WHAT THE FUCK!WHAT THE FUCK!WHAT THE FUCK!WHAT THE FUCK!WHAT THE FUCK!WHAT THE FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

OK MUCH better.... wish i cld make emily feel better. she really really deserves a break. sumthign amazing is gonna happen to her i k ow. sumthign amazing is around the corner to make her life smile and happy and whole...

i dunno what but i got faith..

speaking of which she has hers too and that how she got thru it. her mom did too and thats how she was able to die peacfully...

emily, sumtime soon... the sun is gonan shine so much ur gonna wonder about sunburns! i know it...soon, sumthign amazing to help with all this bullshit!