Just tried talking to the ex's family. Hey, at least i tried. got one worded responses and cold shoulder. I dunno why I am dispointed. shlda guessed what would happen. I guess I just thought Franks Dad would be different, you know? He was always so sweet to me.... I guess when you're the bitch exwife who breaks your son's heart you tend to be a tad cold shouldered.
I sooo want to tell them their sweet son broke my heart more times then i can count. and that they don't realise he never really quit Pot..... but i am better then that. I am not as bitter as I once was and even as bitter as i was i'd never have done that. still... justa as the blog's pic says.....
skinned knee's are so much easier to heal then broken hearts... both mine and his will take time....
His father actually signed out of msn messenger to avoid me... ouch. I miss them. The family. I regret not giving them one thing. a baby, a grandchild. they are in their mid 70's, the ex's parents that is. By the time that He (frank) finds another and marries.... well they may be dead b4 they see a grandchild.
That was one of his reasons to have kids... for them. I explained you cant have a kid just to give your parents a grandchild. I now realise you cant have a child just to have a child either. theres so much involed. waaay to much for me. thank God we never procreated!
With my heart, i shouldnt have kids. what if i keel over one day when the kid is still in elementary school. i cant burden my s/o w/ raising a kid alone and the poor kid...c an u imagine.
still...
I keep telling mysel I cant have kids, I dont want kids.. but that damn maternal instict keeps kicking in. I wont have children. ever.
I'm sorry Frank. I'm sorrier Franks Parents.
why does that make me cry?
EX-FAMILY
tears fall
funny things.
they come expectantly.
I have no idea
what they mean.
are they for me?
no.
They are for lost dreams.
dashed hopes.
and dispointed lives
not mine.
i'm sorry.
I just neeeded to be.
i didnt mean
to hurt.
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*hug*.......*'nother hug*.
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