Zack and Mira make a porno...err i mean Allan and Memake a porno

so, thursday, allan shows up for our usual night together. tells me he's got a surprise for me.
he bought a video camera. and a video tape for recording
lol.
so... we filmed an an amateaur (very) porno. basically us having sex.
it was an odd turn on wathing him chk out the different vantage points the camera cld go, and even more of an odd turn on the two of us picking where what wld go.
i was so very turned on during the lovemaking too! and even when he was stopping to both get me "liquids" to drink and to reposition the camera.... it was even more of a turn on!
roflol

so yeah... we made a porno.
i have the video here. unfortuantly i didnt get the chance to record it ontoa vhd tape.... so its sitting there.... taunting me. begging to be watched
lol

wow... i can;t belive how confident i am sexually... and i cant belive the way i tsut allan. i mean... we;ve had sex in public places...lol the park in town, a meadow behind sum houses, na parking lot in his van...the last one was the best! i miss his van! he has a car now. i mean, even on my honeymoon with frank i didnt make love in the van... it was in the tent. andf then only once.
i was so sick on my honeymoon. man..... my heart conditon was pretty bad. not bad enuff to operate but bad enuff that i spent a lot of my tiem sleeping...poor frank. barely got any on his honeymoon cus of it. spent miost of the honeymoon worrying about me. i mean, the guy wasnt always bad...lol
speking of frank.. alan sugested i send hima copy of the porn to him... just the parts that did show allans face...lol
i laughed... but no.
and i doubt allan wa sserious. tho he mentioend it a cpl times.... i must ask him abotut hat! lol he also mentioned "i know my girl better after one yr then frank did after 8 yrs" lol tru. then again... does anybody really know me?
i am an ever changing woman. lol
anyways.. is till cant beleive i did that... i made a dirty video.. i made aprno...lol.
i hate prn... but i suppose if its pictures for ur loved one... and not for the masses...i suppose if its video for ur loved one and not for the masses... i like that side of porn. but i hate porn otherwise! lol
i know allan likes porn. but he has aheatlthy sexual appiitie... now if he ever did what frank did and start lookign at kids... or even start to look at porn and then not touch me.... then i'd have an issue! lol
but that aint happening now
i tell u, there are times ifeel my age.... i mean my young age. and otehr times i feel lie my uusual mature self...lol making aporno, definatly my young self! lol


so.... yeah....
thats thursday... wonder what this thursday will bring? lol
i knwo one thing, i'll hat sunday.... allan working 7am till 7pm. he took ona new job and does shifts one ina while liek that....anyways... what ithought was incredibley sweet.... get this. before he even accepted the job... he asked emily AND ME what we thought. cus well it cld and wld sumtimes interupt out time together if a shift fel on our night together.... not often but once in a while.... i was impressed he thgt to ask me.... makes me feel like he actually thinks of me in his life, and not as a second life.
one step int eh right direction....
now if we cld just do sumthing other then stay inside amnd make love i'd be happy. notnthat i am compaining, i lvoe getting laid twice a week every week! thats fucking amazing! lol. but, it is the fact i dont want it to just be about sex.... oh but thats the cute part...lol. allan one night said the same thing... i mentioned i was happy we were staying in but i was getting cabin fever. and he piped up and said "yeah, i dont want u to think its all justab out the sex...cus it is not" lol we both laughed at that and admitted that it was weet we both thought the same thing, that we both wanted more then just sex. altho we both agreed the sex is amaxing and we are "good for each other' int hat aspect...lol
i must admit...it is wonderful turnign aman on like that. justa kiss on the lips and he's on fire! lol. it is so very empowering to hear him want me...
oh man, one night recently he BEGGED me for a blow job. "please" he whispered.... i was so pleased to oblige. i mean i knwo guys like blow jobs, but to hear a man beg you for one.... wow! not to compare, but frank used to beg me to give hima blow job too. but he nvr cleaned himself very well, showers were well... not a daily routine. so i didnt like giving hima blow job unless it was after a shower. when he used to beg me he'd then take my head and push me, forcing me down to give him one.... i would say no and he;'d still try.....
allan... well he justa asks... well begs... and thats it. sumtimes he even says "u dont have to do that u know. dont feel liek u have to...but if u want to, i wont complain" i mean..he nvr forces me.
only once have we had a misundertsanding int he bed. that was when i said no to sex w/out a condom, and he got me worked up and dewspite my saying no a few times... nxt thing i knew...he was inside.....
he has nvr made that mistake ever again! he apologised left right anhd centree..... he made up for it royally. even went so far as to wait until i came to him for sex.... of course... i wasn tlong, i mean... he makes love wonderfully! lol

anyways... thats enuff for now...
damn i wish i had that camera! i want to make a video so i can watch my porno w/ allan!

and trsu me i knwo i know about sex w/out a condom..... i wont go there. i love sex, but condoms are a must. but once u r in a commited relationship.... and ur partner is not having sex w/ anyone lese (liek say ur husband, or common law) imean, then...ok. but non one on one relationshipss...no. condoms, must. i mean, i wore condoms w/ frank eery time. one as a contraceptive, 2 hygene - the guy was dirty, 3 inthe end i didnt trust he wasnt having it w/ sumbody else.....