have happy memories

"... and soon the memories will fade, as they should, and be replaced by other memories. Have happy memories like ours were, my love, all the days of your life."

just watched tail end of "the far horizons" 1955 movie romanticized barely true to history version of Sacajawea....

that last line just struck me.

allan, have happy memories.... I will try to have happy memories too.

went out with a freind tonight. humored a cpl of my gal pals by going out with him to see iron man 2. Loved the movie, HATED my date! LOL. SORRY THE GUY ANNOYS THE SHIT OUTTA ME! lol. HE WOULDNT SHUT UP DURING THE MOVIE! u know i'm ok for clever banter here andf there, a comment here and there, and hey if is an old movie then sure comment away... but ntot in the theatre and this guy was just not shutting up... i actually had to say "J, shhh...shut up." this was the seocond movie i wnet to with him and he has doen this both times.... argh! i have no atience for movie jabberers when it is in theatres. at home sure, hell i talk during movies at home...but not in theatres!!!
poor guy... i also leaned so far away from him (cus he was trying to lean in close) that i ended up hurting my neck! LOL poor guy...
realised sumthing.... allan, is a hard act to follow up in my heart...
dating right now, aint working.... altho this was more hanging out then dating. more getting my freinds to shut up and stop rooting fer this guy,J... LOL. he's sweet, shy, geeky guy. ok freind...horrid date! LOL
I'm basically doign this, for appearances. and in hopes it will speed up gettign over allan...
cus part of me still hopes we can all work this out.
another part of me wants nuttin to do with him
another part of me want to be his and emily's freind
I am very worried about him. he says he is going down a dark path. he says he recognised symptoms of depression.... i am worried. scared for him. terrified. he says he'd never commit suicide, and i beelive him...but there are other ways to hurt yurself and i am worried he'll head down that path...
anyways... back to the movie
iron man 2... fucking awesum!!!! LOVED it! wanna own it... FUCKING AWESUM!!!