a weird injury, drawing, flowers and church

First, the weird ijury...how the heel did manage to hurt the very inside of my inner belly button (which goes in, not out).. it is bleeding... wtf????
now for drawing part...
started drawing again... saw a pic online i've used here a few times... and drew sumthign like it. gettign back to basics. see a peice of art, and draw from it... dont' copy exactly ... but look to it fer refernce, to learn from it. eventually i'll get to my own drawings... right now, its pretty much the most i've drawn in yrs... aside from a charater i did for an rpg game and the hand i drew in the Hotel P which was in creative therapy... its been about 10 yrs sicne i drew sumthign that was detailed....
so yeah... back to basics. i've also gotta draw sum shapes and practice shading and then work on looking at objects and drawing them first as basic outlines then with shading and then eventually, i'll get back to where i was 10 yrs ago... :-)

also, i sent emily sum anonymous flowers cus i did not know her grandmother's funeral details. and i figured just cus it si days after the funeral, a person still misses a loved one. so i ordered the flowers online and put ona condolances/ sympathy card "in hopes this brightens your day, if only just a little" and emailed allan to tell him, seeing as how emily still has made no contact with me. so that way if she guess who they were from and got mad or weirded out then he could tell her that they re just flowers, no strings attached, not tryign to suck her back into my life... i just sent flowers to a freind who lost a loved one as a kind thought... i've done it before. she said she wanted to be freinds a while back... hasnt told me otherwise...

went to church today. i'm still questioning my faith.... but still goignt o church. nuttin wrong woth that, i mean..how else am i goigt o figure out the answers unless i keep going...i'm questioning whethere or not the church i am going to is for me, if i beleive poly is right or wrong, and if i believe organised religion is for me... i do know without a doubt i beleive in god and jesus and want a relationship with God and jesus... so whethere or not i go to church i'll still be born again christian... and i'm in choir. and i will keep going, cus i am worshipping god as i sing...
just cus i have questions, that doe snot make me less of a christian and is not a reason for me to quit choir...