he says he'll let me lead. whatever i want......
i coulda had a friend with benefits. found that out after talking with allan. basically he's taking his cues offa me... whatever i want he's there for....he's game fer....
but sex isnt just sex to me. theres an emotional and even a spiritual connection. and i'd eventually want more. and ot would break me , tear me, kill me to know that i could never have it....
i cant settle for what i can get, if wha i can get is less then what i need...
dear god it took every once within me to say no tonight....my body just crumpled under his touch....so...i dont think i can cuddle him....
so it wasnt just sex. but we arent back on. ok thats good.... but we need boundaries.... and i am not sure i can have those with him....
i'm tired...... so very very very tired.....
But time, new love, and Jesus heal all wounds
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