last night

well, with my neck being the way it has been, i have not been able to go out to pick up supplies, or really cook... my dad was supposed to come by wednesday to take me to get supplies and drop off sum spaghetti to get me thru the week...
h didnt.
i called wednesday he said he wld be by thursday
he didnt
so friday i am sitting woth nothing to drink at all. except tap water. no jilk no juice, nuttin. cats are outta food. and i have nuttin quick to make except sandwiches...and i can choose tuna, cheese, tomato, or a combo of all ....
then the pain starts again and i lef tmy magic bag at work (u know thos ethings u heat up ad wrap around ur neck)
anyays i am in tremendous pain and the pain killers i was given arent working... so i call allan...
ask him if he or emily cld take me out to get supplies...

i am high
seriously. i too 2 robax platinum ( as prescribed) and i am high when call him and high when he shows up.
we get o giggling and carrying on ad tee heeing all the time ....
cus i am high.

then, it wears off.... cus u know u can only be high so much for so long.. and this had already been a cpl hrs or so...
and then i am in pain. physically and emotionally
i tell him my dad never showed and i start to cry and say i had to call him for help. he tel me not to feel guilty and i blurt out that i dont feel guilty about asking for his help for once cus i am not talking hi away fro sum body (ie i am not taking him away to spend time as his girlfriend...and he isnt hiding it from emily either cus anytime i asked for sumthign outside of date night 9/10 he'd hide it from emily)" but rally i am crying partly cus of dad but partly cus i cant see him without crying... i feel so hurt...
seeing him hurts....
he helps me carry my stuff out then makes a mad dash for the door cus while we were out he got the call to come into work....

i feel the pain..all over again... but a cpl robax and a Tylenol , sum chocolate milk and ice cream... and i fall asleep...

i wake up to fat cat sleeping on my chest... which can only mean one thing.... i must've fallen asleep crying. he only ever sleeps on my chest if i am crying. he tried to comfort me b curling up and purring on my chest.... otherwise he sleep at my side or my feet....

my neck feels better today tho....
my heart.....
feels pain.....