emily...

i cant write peotry, my heart just wont speak i've never felt so lost..cant write cant read music is not the same faith seems so wrong people seem so distant and love is a dream turned nightmare
i'm forcing myself to write..so this stuff is worse poetry than usual! LOL

i wish i were melo dramatic
when i say
my heart has turned to stone
i wish i was over exaggerating
when i say,
i fight darkness every day
but i'm not


this darkness i feel inside
this guilt and shame and loss
is a pain too real
it chains my heart
locks me in a a prison
i'm lost and i can't be found


i broke my best friends heart.
i shattered it to pieces
i left her in the dark
as i ran away
how do you fix that?
you can't.


i saw your picture today
i looked away
i flipped the page
tears in my eyes,
heart in my throat
a love that can never be fulfilled
dreams turned nightmares...



I'm lonely and afraid
i feel so lost and adrift
i lost my love,
he ran away.
i lost my friends,
i pushed her away,
i lost my family,
they never were there.
i lost it all...
and thats what i can't bear