holy shit!

this sia light post, cant remeber the last time i did one....
I just randomly met sum guy on a networking site called experience project.. apparently he is on this website as he is a dom looking fer a sub...
we cahhted.. ishared why iw as ont he site...to share my story about my affair...
i shared my guilt
my suicidal thoughts
he then shares he is a greif councillor
then he mentions his greif councilling is pastoral training so he will talk about God....

i just met a dom greif councillor who has pastoral training....
i'm so happy!
cus if ther ie such thing as this, dammit theres gotta be sum christian guy out there who would love sex and all the kinky shit as much as i do!!! but by kinky, i do not mean that i am a dom, or a sub, or into bdsm or anythign liek that... sure a little bit of bondage was sexy one in a blue moon... you know, scarves or furry cuffs...
LOL
i'm happy
oh and to boot
this si the best part....
he beleives greif is greif...whether it is a the loss of a job or a loved one..
so umm.. guess what i just mamaged to find... somwbody to talk to.
well online...
i'm lookign for an alternative lifestylkes councillor, cus well..my current one is waaaaay too biast about polyamoury and it is not effective as i feel i cant open up to her as she has her mind made up .... so i'm lookign fer another therapist...
anyways .. happy