i cant think of a titile

i am seriously messed up right now....
really really messed up...

anyways.... i am struggling cus part of me wants to never see or talk or anything with allan
another part wants to be friends
and another part holds out hope we could work this all out the three of us...
told ya... messed up to say the least...

i do not trust myself and i just have no idea what i want or need any longer... i'm lost and i feel very very alone ...
cus i may have a ton of people all around me but..i just... i do not connect with them as close as people think...
i let Mae close, she dies. I let frank close, he treated me like i was nothing and broke my heart. i let allan close and i have to leave him then ahve an affair and i lose him. i let emily close and i hurt her in the deepest of betrayals.....
anybody else has been a friend but... i dont let the too close.. i'm too scared i'll get hurt. and that inner voice, just..seems to be unheard...
what d i do? where do i go? what do i want..
i dont know any more

all i feel is...like its all just gone..dust in the wind... dont worry i dont have any thoughts of ending it, i'm just..feeling lost.
Kansas
Dust In The Wind lyrics

I close my eyes
Only for a moment and the moment's gone
All my dreams
Pass before my eyes a curiosity

Dust in the wind
All they are is dust in the wind

Same old song
Just a drop of water in an endless sea
All we do
Crumbles to the ground though we refuse to see

Dust in the wind
All we are is dust in the wind

Now don't hang on
Nothing lasts forever but the Earth and Sky
It slips away
And all your money won't another minute buy

Dust in the wind
All we are is dust in the wind
All we are is dust in the wind
Dust in the wind
Everything is dust in the wind
Everything is dust in the wind



Christina Aguilera - The Voice Within
Lyrics

Young girl don’t cry
I’ll be right here when your world starts to fall
Young girl it’s alright
Your tears will dry, you’ll soon be free to fly

When you’re safe inside your room you tend to dream
Of a place where nothing’s harder than it seems
No one ever wants or bothers to explain
Of the heartache life can bring and what it means

Chorus:
When there’s no one else, look inside yourself
Like your oldest friend just trust the voice within
Then you’ll find the strength that will guide your way
You’ll learn to begin to trust the voice within

Young girl don’t hide
You’ll never change if you just run away
Young girl just hold tight
Soon you’re gonna see your brighter day

Now in a world where innocence is quickly claimed
It’s so hard to stand your ground when you’re so afraid
No one reaches out a hand for you to hold
When you're lost outside look inside to your soul

Chorus

Life is a journey
It can take you anywhere you choose to go
As long as you’re learning
You’ll find all you’ll ever need to know
(be strong)
You’ll break it
(hold on)
You’ll make it
Just don’t forsake it because
No one can tell you what you can’t do
No one can stop you, you know that I’m talking to you

Chorus

Young girl don’t cry I’ll be right here when your world starts
to fall