you know what 2 things hurt the most about allan and me...
1) that he didnt have the balls to tell emily...
and 2) he never even fought to keep me. emily said "you and her are thru" and all he said was "ok". sure i was wanting it to end that night anyways but he didnt knwo that...he just said ...ok
wtf?????
you think if i was more then jst a fuck, he;d have begged to keep me...
if i was not a part time girlfreind ont he side liek he said..then he would have lovedme enuff to say..."hold it...lets work this out"
like last time...
but he didnt...
he just,,
"ok"
wtf?
really made e feel liek i was nuttin but good for a fuck... you know?
really made me feel..worthless...
whatever...
he aint worth the pain..
leats thats what i keep tellign myself...in hopes i'llbeleive it...cus i miss him and i still love him... and i'm trying to stay mad so that i can not love him... you know?
it aint workign so well..
and it isnt cus he can do no wrong...its cus...depite the wrong... i want to beelive he can do right...
fuck! i'm fucked!
i really got t get over him...fast. really fast...
know any good guys that want a rerlationship. oh wait, that was JB and i turned him down...cus i dont want to rebound...
aw fuck!
well i'm glad i relaise i didnt want to rebound....
rebounds are bad!!!!
never had a rebounfd tho so i dont knwo from experience...
i only knwo rebounds are bad cus thats what ppl tell me...