guard

I had to keep my guard up around frank..
and i had to keep my guard up around allan...
it will be nice... to eventually met a guy... i dont ahve to keep my guard up around. it gets so tiring. i think thats what i meant by i got tired of fighting... wasnt fighting..it was guard. i was tired of keeping my guard up. and not havign my guard up is what i truly want...
i had to contstanly keep frank from weed and try to watch and regain trust, guar
i had keep allan and emily's secret, guard
i had to fight against my heart, guard
and now after my affair.....
guard
i wish i could just stop being on guard.....